a song

For the babe I will hold and snuggle one day, who I will call my own

"I Get To Be The One"  JJ Heller

Well hello,
Little baby.
Your eyes have never seen the sun
You should know
Little baby
That I am the lucky one

I get to be the one to hold your hand
I get to be the one.
Through birthdays and broken bones
I'll be there to watch you grow
I get to be the one.

Don't feel alone now,
Little baby.
Do you hear me singing you a song
I can't wait to show you
Little baby
How to crawl
How to walk
And how to run

How does someone so small
Hold my heart so tightly
I don't even know you
I love you completely

slowing down

sometimes i need to be reminded of what's important in life.

not the laundry, mama.

not dinner, mama.

not groceries, mama.

let's be farmers, mama.

let's cuddle on the couch, mama.

let's stay in our pajamas today, mama.

birth stories

five years ago.
we discovered you were growing in my womb.  i already knew.  a test only told the rest of the world.

today.
we wait for you.  no tests to take. no tummy to show the signs.  only hope and prayer and waiting and trusting.  you grow in another's womb.  and in my heart.  bigger every day.  you're coming home someday, baby.  we're all on a journey, baby - you, me, birth parents, daddy and brother - that brings us closer to each other.